Rotten Roots Grow Up A Rotten Tree

First, please pardon my bad English and grammar. Then please understand that this may not be the right answer because even the professionals are in debate, what make me so great to be right, right?

Why/what made Jared Loughner do it? Simply because he follows his ideal “dreams”… and there are many complicated things that lead to this “dreams.” Even though many professionals point at his videos as evidence for his insanity (not in one’s right mind), the contents of his videos prove to me that Jared is totally in HIS right mind.

It took me about 15 minutes just to understand ONE video he posted (and he posted five!). As I watch the text-only videos posted by Jared Lee Loughner, I wonder whether it is because English is my second language or Jared is illiterate that I don’t really understand whatever he wrote. Now that I understand (doesn’t mean that I also idealize) his “dreams” that he revealed in his videos, Jared becomes a completely sane person to me. Jared states, “My favorite activity is conscience (moral) dreaming,” which shows that he believes he is doing a favor to us, the “illiterate/non-dreamer people.” The Daily Beast reported, “Potok thinks he (Jared) might mean “conscious dreaming,” (instead of “CONSCIENCE dreaming”) an idea particularly perpetrated by a British writer David Icke. “The link to Icke, who is an extremist, might be weak, but the basic idea of conscious dreaming is impossible to understand but boils down to: what we think is reality really isn’t. We live in a holographic universe,” which clearly explain Jared’s philosophy of “what we learned might not be the truth.” From the NYTimes, a report from Ms. Castle shows that Jared is interested in “lucid dreaming,” which is when the dreamer becomes aware that he/she is dreaming and able to control those dreams. But why is he obsessed with the dreaming things though? I am obsessed with dreaming, too (Please! Not to that extend!), because what I dreamed is what I can’t get in real life or it is too broad a goal that I’m not able to reach yet. Does this mean that Jared also dreams because he can’t get what he wants or that his dream is too broad? Anyone remember about how he wrote about the new currency? He stated, “If I’m possessing 10,000 new coins, and add 1 new coin to the new money system then my treasury is 10,001 new coins. My treasury isn’t 10,001 new coins. Thus, I’m possessing 10,000 new coins, and didn’t add 1 new coin to the new money system,” as I understand it, his new currency is only belong to him and no one is using it yet, like how dreams/goals are not reached and ideas are being ignored. When you are ignored, what do you do? What do you think others might do? Try to make yourself appealing to attract attention, right?

According to Ranke, history zooms in and out on “famous” people and WE study those “history.” If Jared wants people to notice his “dreams,” there is nothing better than making a fuss to attract attention. At this point, he has achieved part of his goal. Others may point at his family problem where his father doesn’t show any affection to him. That’s maybe right, but then if he wants his father’s attention, why not shooting his mother (Not that I said he should!) because he just need a person to shoot at to cause attention. Which only point me at the other direction, politic. The thing is who to shoot when it is politic, a police officer will be completely fine because a police officer is a part of the government too, why Gabrielle Gifford? Before I prove this, I should recall another part of his videos. He keeps saying that Pima Community College is a scam. NYTimes reports that when he is dropped out of high school, he said, “I realize now that this is all a scam.” When he volunteered, he was told not to come back until he “could follow rules.” When he receives a B for his grade and late assignments, he demands his rights according to the Constitution. His father doesn't acknowledge him/his existence. Now come back to his videos, his word “government” suddenly seems like just any authority to me. Schools are “government” to Jared as well, because schools “control” and teach or “brainwashing” grammar! (Government control more than that!) In 2007, the first meeting with Gabrielle Gifford, Jared’s ideas are completely ignored by her. Now she suddenly becomes a good choice of “a person to shoot at.” Now that he shoots someone with authority, soon people will start to read his works and acknowledge his ideal “dreams.”

Much like Beck, Jared also asks us “his listeners” to “read between the lines and infer things that he does not say aloud.” Beck also mentions how fascism and communism are two schools of thought and that they are not much different than each other. No wonder why “The Communist Manifesto” is in his favorite reading list. It rather introduces a new way of thinking to him. Rather than saying Jared has a mental illness, he thinks more alike Beck, both want to set themselves as the first examples for others to acknowledge and follow their ideal “dreams”. In Jared’s case, it’s a little more like “rotten roots grow up a rotten tree” (an idiom in my country which means Jared has problem from his family and it branches out even more into society).